Somewhere I Was Never Meant To Belong

[nandini00]

Somewhere I Was Never Meant To Belong

There are people you can talk to, yet still do not belong to.
Voices that reply, but never open the door wider than a message.

You are there in words, in inbox lines, in brief moments of connection
but never beyond that. Never into the spaces where life quietly continues.

I do not understand it fully.
I try to tell myself it is nothing.
But the heart does not always agree with what the mind accepts.

It hurts in a quiet way, not loud, not dramatic
just a slow realization that I am kept outside
not by anger, but by choice.

And I respect it, even when it confuses me.
Even when I do not know what I did to be placed here
in this limited space of presence.
So I stay where I am allowed to stay.

I do not cross where I am not welcomed.
I do not reach where I am not invited.
But that does not mean it does not hurt.
Because it does.

Softly. Repeatedly. In ways I cannot explain to anyone without sounding small.
Still, I remain respectful of your distance.
Even if I do not understand it.
Even if a part of me keeps wondering why it has to be this way.

There are moments I wonder quietly
if I was ever meant to be closer than this
or if I was only ever meant to exist at the edge of your world
never inside it.

It is not anger I carry
only a silence that grew where expectation once lived
and a heart learning how to care without being chosen.

Maybe I don’t deserve to be in your circle,
and I accept that thought even when it hurts to say it.

Thank you, anyway, for the moments you did reply
for the time you gave, even when I never asked for it
and never wanted to feel like I was disturbing you.

I still wish you well, even from here.
Even from this place that never became home.
And slowly, I learn
that some connections are not meant to be held
only understood from where they are left.

 

[Honey bunch]

Somewhere I Was Never Meant To Belong

There are people you can talk to, yet still do not belong to.
Voices that reply, but never open the door wider than a message.

You are there in words, in inbox lines, in brief moments of connection
but never beyond that. Never into the spaces where life quietly continues.

I do not understand it fully.
I try to tell myself it is nothing.
But the heart does not always agree with what the mind accepts.

It hurts in a quiet way, not loud, not dramatic
just a slow realization that I am kept outside
not by anger, but by choice.

And I respect it, even when it confuses me.
Even when I do not know what I did to be placed here
in this limited space of presence.
So I stay where I am allowed to stay.

I do not cross where I am not welcomed.
I do not reach where I am not invited.
But that does not mean it does not hurt.
Because it does.

Softly. Repeatedly. In ways I cannot explain to anyone without sounding small.
Still, I remain respectful of your distance.
Even if I do not understand it.
Even if a part of me keeps wondering why it has to be this way.

There are moments I wonder quietly
if I was ever meant to be closer than this
or if I was only ever meant to exist at the edge of your world
never inside it.

It is not anger I carry
only a silence that grew where expectation once lived
and a heart learning how to care without being chosen.

Maybe I don’t deserve to be in your circle,
and I accept that thought even when it hurts to say it.

Thank you, anyway, for the moments you did reply
for the time you gave, even when I never asked for it
and never wanted to feel like I was disturbing you.

I still wish you well, even from here.
Even from this place that never became home.
And slowly, I learn
that some connections are not meant to be held
only understood from where they are left.
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Very well expressed

 

[Honey bunch]

Somewhere I Was Never Meant To Belong

There are people you can talk to, yet still do not belong to.
Voices that reply, but never open the door wider than a message.

You are there in words, in inbox lines, in brief moments of connection
but never beyond that. Never into the spaces where life quietly continues.

I do not understand it fully.
I try to tell myself it is nothing.
But the heart does not always agree with what the mind accepts.

It hurts in a quiet way, not loud, not dramatic
just a slow realization that I am kept outside
not by anger, but by choice.

And I respect it, even when it confuses me.
Even when I do not know what I did to be placed here
in this limited space of presence.
So I stay where I am allowed to stay.

I do not cross where I am not welcomed.
I do not reach where I am not invited.
But that does not mean it does not hurt.
Because it does.

Softly. Repeatedly. In ways I cannot explain to anyone without sounding small.
Still, I remain respectful of your distance.
Even if I do not understand it.
Even if a part of me keeps wondering why it has to be this way.

There are moments I wonder quietly
if I was ever meant to be closer than this
or if I was only ever meant to exist at the edge of your world
never inside it.

It is not anger I carry
only a silence that grew where expectation once lived
and a heart learning how to care without being chosen.

Maybe I don’t deserve to be in your circle,
and I accept that thought even when it hurts to say it.

Thank you, anyway, for the moments you did reply
for the time you gave, even when I never asked for it
and never wanted to feel like I was disturbing you.

I still wish you well, even from here.
Even from this place that never became home.
And slowly, I learn
that some connections are not meant to be held
only understood from where they are left.
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Like a puzzle piece forced into the wrong picture, I stayed in a place that never quite shaped itself around me.

I was there, but never truly part of it—like a star trying to shine in someone else’s sky, or roots searching for soil that refused to hold them.

Everything looked right from the outside, yet inside it felt misplaced, as if I was only ever meant to pass through, not belong.

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