Hye it's Superman obsession story over a girl for 19years
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Crush or admiration or love or RespectShe's the first person to kiss me on my cheeks on 2004 I will remember it for my entire lifetime.The kiss is a warmth that cares for others she's a good and kind hearted girl.A pure soul and so beautiful.A talented one and a little bit rugged and a attitude one.Thats the part i liked her most still now too.I always liked her from my school days and we studied together for 14 years in the same school.Never i disliked her and she always helps others and i never have a chance to tell her how i respected her and liked her but it was so heart breaking then a failed proposal to ever speak to her again that's my biggest regret I have now.Just a few hours sitting under a tree telling her how i feel about her would be enough for me but I am unlucky yet i was lucky for those 14 years.From my phone passwords and game passwords it was her name.My phone wallpaper and File explorer she was in my phone for some years.I liked her so much and it continued to grow in the closing stages of my school days.Always looking for her presence waiting for her to arrive and walk in the sand to classroom.I notice it from a certain distance and will be sad if she's absent that's how we Will be and our mindset to the person we miss so much even it for a day but it pains..From writing her name in the benches and carving it on the bench gets scolded by principal it was so much drama yet beautiful memories.In college we were nearby my some around 30 kilometres or so in cbe but couldn't see her regularly then came Facebook it was the start of the Android era just normal text messages in keypad mobile then in FB and then came WhatsApp.Always the stupid messages I ask the same routine till now 1.Good morning,Good Eve,Good night
2.Have a good day,Had food
3. How was ur day
4.Nice dp
Most of the time the above messages and i was always the first one to text never know how to build conversation or she's not interested in that yet I waited for those morning texts and evening texts during class hours too.The messages are like adrenaline that motivates me entire day.
You know she cared sometimes but not most of the times we had arguments and she like a changing the channel in tvs she used the blocked option on me and unblocked me and again block me.So much of sorry and just creating a group and adding her number and say sorry and left that's how I asked sorry.Yeah I have girls in classes and my other departments too yet i talked with her only waiting for her messages most of the time what a simple minded I am and i ignored others not ignorance but never have a fond to them.That was one of the biggest mistakes I have done.Just met her a couple of time in bus but never have a moment to share with her alone and in those couple of times she liked other person and likes to spend with them not me.I don't know but was the saddest part.Maybe I was a joker for her just a timepass or a passing cloud i never have asked her about it and i didn't say I liked her.Never have a courage to speak to her.Always shy especially to girls that's why have this username shy Everything ended in 2017 and she blocked me for a year and I had a chance to see her at my friends marriage.You know the eyes don't lie she didn't see me eye to eye just looking another side and went and we eat together next day and spoke a few words and i found that she's not comfortable to speak with me .She went abroad in 2018 and i dreamed of giving her a send off gift but it ended so early.2019 i texted her in August and I resisted but my heart wants to text her and we did every now and then.2023 came and i was busy with my exams.I forget to install my WhatsApp and she have sent a text of her message in video just sharing not even a text hye come and attend or a call for all those efforts I put yet a simple text is not enough for me in her heart.Maybe i didn't understand her or how she felt about me.I congratulated her and deleted my number from my phone not from my stupid heart.But couldn't unfollow her in Insta.You know most of my status and postings and Taylor swift songs are for her just a view enough made my day.I was so sad and lonely just living my life wanting the days to pass by and i unfollowed her in 2026. Sometimes I overthink and replaying the old memories what if I had done something different for her but it's what it is we can't change the fact.Still the stupid Ai in insta when ever i search something different it shows her name sometimes reminding of her.I never cursed her for what she did just want her to be happy and i left her finally but slowly recovering to be my old self..For those who read and who don't read its a short essay and i express my emotions in words and it makes me feel light so here I wrote a little about me....Maybe every one had a person in their lives like this i hope so.We are just a hated story in their book but in our book she's our favourite chapter I am happy to share with u guys Finally a art for her 
She was my exile 
"Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind"
My favourite lines of Back to December song in Taylor swift ...
Is still burned in the back of your mind"
My favourite lines of Back to December song in Taylor swift ...
