Jaanuu
Favoured Frenzy
Part 04 - Whimsies :- the ones who made me laugh without reason 
(Disclaimer: This part too, like the ones before, is nothing but a soft corner of my heart being poured out. These words are written out of love, gratitude, and memories that mattered to me. Please don't take anything too seriously or personally. If I said something wrong, or if something here made you uncomfortable, I’m truly sorry. This is just my way of saying thank you for being part of my journey. For the laughter, the comfort, the memories for simply being there.)
I think this part of my Zozo memories is my favorite one, the one where I laughed without thinking, said the dumbest jokes, did the craziest things. Everyone mentioned here is special, someone who made me laugh loud and live fully in the moment.
And first on that list is my Achumon, @ashwin202 . I don’t remember exactly when we first talked. Honestly, I think I used to ignore him at first. But then, somehow, our vibes just matched naturally, effortlessly.
We chatted endlessly, shared the silliest jokes, spilled the teas, and laughed through our mood swings. He became this steady, sarcastically wise presence, the one who knew how to calm me not with soft love, but with that smirky, mature energy.
I used to say this about him:
"വകതിരിവ് ഉള്ള ചെക്കൻ."
He always motivated me, pulled me back up when I felt low. His maturity? Way beyond what you'd expect, and that’s what made him stand out in this space. That attitude, his way of being, it just hit different.
So, my dear Achumoneeeeee,
I love you lots and lots. Stay just like this.
Be you. Keep this attitude.
Stay this kind.
And only love me always, okay? Mwahhhh!
Thank you for everything, Achumoneeeeee!
And I’m sorry if I ever hurt you.
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The next is the funniest one. He just flows with my vibe, and we both sail through the hardest waves cracking jokes and sharing wits. He’s @Joel18 , my spill-the-tea partner, my partner-in-crime, my best friend, my paracetamol, my dolo, my medicine, and basically everything!
Everything with him has been so unexpectedly cute. Honestly, I never thought we’d get this close but we did. And now he’s someone like Ashwin, someone I never want to lose from here.
We used to fight a lot in the beginning, but somehow and unexpectedly we started talking more. We fell into the rhythm of companionship, and now we help each other out with mood swings, bad days, and all the emotional chaos life throws at us.
He’s the only one who constantly checks on me, who genuinely worries about me. In a single day, he’ll ask, “Are you okay or not?” multiple times, sometimes to the point of irritation! But that’s just how caring and loving he is.
"ജോയലേ, നിന്നെപ്പറ്റി നീ പറഞ്ഞതുപോലെ തന്നെ പൊക്കി അടിച്ചിട്ടുണ്ടേ!"
So, to the one who always listens without complaints, who corrects me, who motivates me (and gives lectures like a pro), stay like this. Grow more. Go deeper into life. Experience more. Study what life truly is. Live it as it comes. Enjoy everything.
I really, really love you a lot and lots!
Mwwahhhh!
Thank you for being there.
And I’m sorry if I ever did anything wrong.
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The next is my recent crush lol. Someone who used to come in youth actor Sandeep’s dp, and in a space where we can’t see faces or figures, the only thing we can fall for is someone’s profile. And lolan was among those few who caught my attention.
Maybe it all started with that little crush I mentioned. But somehow, it became something magical, something cute and sweet.
He has this adorable voice and a beautiful laugh that can make anyone listening feel at ease. I used to feel pleasant and calm around him whenever we talked. A genuinely nice guy I met recently, and a comforting companion I was lucky to find.
But then… There was this one night, someone, I still don’t know who, maybe someone he knew or maybe not, created unnecessary drama on the wall, dragging both of us into something that was clearly triggering and irritating.
I’m not someone who normally judges or interferes in others’ matters easily (I can't exactly say that, I know), but I felt bad, really bad that night. So I stayed silent and ignored it.
Just because someone writes a nickname in their profile or a name in their about section, it doesn’t mean there’s something going on. Sometimes it's just a pure and innocent connection. But then this female ID came and started blabbering on the wall saying we’re in a relationship, that marriage is next, that Lolan is a true lover, and so on... (വെറും ചൊറിയൽ വർത്താനം)
Honestly, it was funny to an extent. Maybe. But even jokes have limits. When it continued for several minutes, I couldn’t take it anymore, so I went offline. I thought of writing something back, but I chose silence. I didn’t want drama. I’ve been through too much of it already. I just wanted peace.
After that, I removed everything related to Lolan from my profile. But we remained friends. Close friends. Though we talked less later, I can say I intentionally did that.
As I always said, it was, "ലോല തരളിത ഹൃദയം" whenever we talked.
His laugh? Still echoes in my ears.
Love you, Lola.
Stay happy.
Thanks for existing.
And I’m sorry if I ever hurt you.
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The next is another special one in this list, Nicklaus. I’ve already said a lot about him before. A guy with attitude if I could say so, but underneath that, a philosophical soul who matched my interests and vibes. We just hit it off, in a kind of flow.
There’s always been this doubt in my mind. Is he someone I already know? He always felt familiar. And even though that confusion lingers, I believe him. I choose to.
If I had to compare our bond to something, it would be with Dostoevsky’s White Nights. It was mostly nights that we met, I mean those were the white nights. And those nights made him special for me.
I didn’t want it to grow into something longer, deeper, or more intense. Whatever we had was already beautifully enough.
You.
I don’t know if you’ll ever read this. Maybe you won’t. But I couldn’t leave you out from here, because you’re one of the most memorable people I came across in this whole place.
I like you. A lot.
Thank you for spending time with me.
And I’m sorry if I ever hurt you.
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The next one is someone I directly said, "I hate you." Hey, nothing serious, okay? How could I ever hate someone I’ve never even talked to properly? We weren't good friends, not even close companions. But somehow, it became a little joke, me saying I hated him, mockingly.
He always took it in a fun way, which made me enjoy going along with the bit. It’s one of those recent memories that still makes me smile.
When it was just the two of us, things were funny. He’s also one of the few who checks in on me. Yeah, he did it once, twice, and more than that. And honestly, that says a lot about his goodness.
So yeah, him. Sultan, the innocent, funny, kind, and sweet guy I happened to cross paths with. I’m sorry I can’t write much more about him, simply because I don’t know him deeply yet. But maybe one day we’ll walk more of this path together, maybe we’ll get closer, and maybe I’ll get to know the person behind the kindness a little better.
And finally, here it is:
I like you, @sulthan .
Because I don’t know you.
Thank you for everything.
And I’m sorry if I ever hurt you.
When I said “I hate you”,
I never meant it. Not even for a second.
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Finally, this person’s nickname was the first thing that caught my attention: “Arthur.”
I had another friend once, with the same nickname. And for a while, I was confused. Were they the same person? I didn’t talk to him much at first because of that confusion. Honestly, I was just worried… unsure. We even got into a fight, where I ignored him.
But slowly, I came to the truth. They weren’t the same. And accepting that truth took time. Still, that realization opened something new. It brought him into my story.
We started talking. And though it all began with a fight, somehow now, everything is on track.
He’s one of the good friends I got from here, unexpected, but appreciated.
@Arthur Miller John ,
I like you for who you are.
Be you.
Thank you for being there.
And I’m sorry if I ever hurt you.
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(Note: This isn’t the end, again. There’s a little more to remember, and a few small gaps to be filled. To those who’ve taken the time to read through all of this, thank you. Thank you for holding space for my memories. I hope it didn’t bore you. Happy reading, always.)
With love,
Jaanu
