She still thinks that i will make an effort to message her, talk to her, ask her hows she?
And for what i am going to do this?
to see her late replying me?
to see she is talking to me only when there is no other guys there?
to see her emotions, which she claimed are only for me, she is spending on one guy after another?
to see her single word reply, and that also emotionless and fake?
to see her busy right now?
to remind myself again and again that her love was her promises were just a lie?
to tell myself again and again that she just found another guy within a day?
to remind myself again that her efforts to talk to me, search for me were zero, as soon as she found replacements?
or, to feel hurted again and again, about thinking that her habit to which she was calling "it is just a flirt with other guys" , was actually her backup plans?
or, to see that there is always one after another guy sticked to her, like i am doing a crime when talking with her?
lastly, to remind myself that "she was a girl who likes quotes but actually never follow them, her texts and behaviours never matched".
i had negleted all of the above mentioned things , with my Ex, and this girl knew it all, and she did it knowingly it will gonna affect me,
i have lots of time to waste, but i dont have a single minute or two, to spend on her, coz i only want and care a girl whom i can trust, who is loyal to me, even when i am not online, and i never wanted a girl who makes backups while with me, and finds someone else within minutes while not talking with me..
if i see a girl loves me, i will do every Good thing to make her happy,
but when i am done,
i am done.
because she cant change herself, nor me, and i can not adjust myself with those things she was doing, no, never...
And for what i am going to do this?
to see her late replying me?
to see she is talking to me only when there is no other guys there?
to see her emotions, which she claimed are only for me, she is spending on one guy after another?
to see her single word reply, and that also emotionless and fake?
to see her busy right now?
to remind myself again and again that her love was her promises were just a lie?
to tell myself again and again that she just found another guy within a day?
to remind myself again that her efforts to talk to me, search for me were zero, as soon as she found replacements?
or, to feel hurted again and again, about thinking that her habit to which she was calling "it is just a flirt with other guys" , was actually her backup plans?
or, to see that there is always one after another guy sticked to her, like i am doing a crime when talking with her?
lastly, to remind myself that "she was a girl who likes quotes but actually never follow them, her texts and behaviours never matched".
i had negleted all of the above mentioned things , with my Ex, and this girl knew it all, and she did it knowingly it will gonna affect me,
i have lots of time to waste, but i dont have a single minute or two, to spend on her, coz i only want and care a girl whom i can trust, who is loyal to me, even when i am not online, and i never wanted a girl who makes backups while with me, and finds someone else within minutes while not talking with me..
if i see a girl loves me, i will do every Good thing to make her happy,
but when i am done,
i am done.
because she cant change herself, nor me, and i can not adjust myself with those things she was doing, no, never...
